Daily Ramblings

Time for the yearly entry?

I has a wii. :D

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( my xmas stocking )

The worst part about having the last kiss with someone you love is that you rarely know that it's the last kiss.

Just gotta take some inspiration from Finding Nemo...just keep swimming.

I've been having a really tough couple of weeks. I took Geology of National Parks this past block, and while initially the field portion was fun, there really needs to be some kind of psychological screening before people are allowed to go on that trip. A couple of very unstable people made that trip not fun at all by the end, and when we got back, everyone just got 4 days off from each other, which was really nice. During the 3rd week of the block, I had 5 writing assignments in 5 days, which works just fine for some people, but not for me. I've also started my new job at Oaknoll, and until yesterday, I was very very stressed out about some financial aid issues that I was having with the college. Now, we have pledging, which is going well, but I'm still trying to get some stuff lined up for next block. I'm taking photo, and my camera still isn't here(luckily I have a friend to borrow from), but after a while, it just all adds up to suckiness.

In other news, Nic and I are back together, and he's invited me home for thanksgiving. Basically, we'd be skiing for the entire time that we'd be there, and I have 4th block off, so I'd have the time to recover from killing my legs...now the question is just whether or not I should go. Thoughts?

Just thought you should know, the Taus tied for 1st place at lip sync tonight!

Nick and I broke up, for good this time. No drama, it was just time for the relationship to come to an end before it got even worse.

Now? Moving on, trying to be friends, and coping with lots and lots of dark chocolate. If you want to donate to my chocolate stash, that'd be mucholy appreciated.

There's a lot of drama in my life right now. I do not want to talk about it, and if you ask about it, or even what is going on, I will likely end up snapping on you. Give me a few days, and everything will be fine, but I know what is best for me, and right now, that means not talking to other people about the situation, as I've gotten to the point where people have asked/lectured about it enough that I no longer have any patience to talk about it.

For those of you that know what's going on, thanks for the support you've provided, and please just continue to understand that I need to do what is best for me, even if that doesn't line up with what everyone thinks I should do. Also, if people inquire to you as to what is going on, please respect my privacy, and direct them to this entry.

For those of you that don't know what's going on, I'm sorry, but I'm just tired of talking about it.

Thanks. Love you all.

So, after a summer at Starlight, I finally got home yesterday around 2 in the afternoon. Met mom's roommate, got laundry started, rehooked up my internet, and started freaking out, because my trip to CO is today, and haven't figured out what all I'm bringing yet.

I currently have less than 12 hours till I have to be at the airport, and I can honestly say, I don't think I've ever been this excited to fly before, if only because of what is waiting for me on the other side. My mom was complaining last night about the lack of quality time she gets with me before I leave, but she and I also hung out a ton at the beginning of summer, and we start to drive each other batty after a while.

So here I am, getting ready for yet another trip. This summer has been a big one for me when it comes to traveling, and in less than two weeks, I start my senior year of college. I don't know if I'm ready to face the real world yet, but nothing like now to give it a try.

So, its almost the end of the summer. My girls have gotten a lot better, my co-counselor left to deal with personal issues, and my new co-counselor is amazing. The entire senior division(which is where I'm a counselor) is leaving on Sunday for a trip to Canada, so I'll have 2 countries on my list outside of the US, and this trip is completely paid for by the camp. After that, I'll have a day off, and then its the final push. Olympics start right after the Canada trip, and then it's just packing, and going home.

I'll only be home for a day and a half, and then I'm heading out to CO from the 15th till the 29th. If you live there, and you wanna hang out, drop me an email to my Gmail account. Anyway, that's about it for now. Lame post, I know.

But, I'm currently in a national disaster area...for those of you that don't know, a freak weather pattern stalled over the east coast. It started raining last Saturday, and finally stopped mid morning yesterday...as a result, most of PA is in a state of national emergency, and all sorts of crazy things have happened. Luckily for us and the campers, my camp is located on top of a mountain, but not so luckily for us, we're having problems getting our supply trucks in. Mail has been coming in pretty regularly, and we have enough food here to get us through the next week, but we currently have no bread or produce, which, when you have picky eaters, and vegitarians, it's not such a good thing.

Hopefully, we'll be able to leave camp tonight, but it could be as late as Monday. Hancock NY, which is about 10 minutes away, and located on the Delaware River has been completely devistated...the kids don't know about it, but they're all starting to pick up on something being wrong, since there's no bread, and our laundry hasn't been picked up, and was supposed to be done Tuesday.

Basically, this post is saying that things could be better, but they could also be much much worse.

I don't have a ton of time to be on the internet while I'm here, but if you want to get a hold of me, my Gmail account is your best bet...hope to hear from you guys soon!

Oh, and if you're really awesome, you'll send me mail ;)

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you (or the first one that comes to mind)
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours (not that I can force you or anything...)

It's the last night of my junior year of college. It's hard to believe that three years have passed since I was a scared freshman, moving into her first dorm room. I've had a rather productive day today, I'm done packing, my car is loaded, and I have a cute outfit laid out for the morning.

I decided that it was time for me to stop dressing like a slob, as the temperature has finally gone down.

This entry is so totally pointless...there's so much I'd like to say, but so much I don't know how to...tonight was a teary night. If I don't see you before I leave, I'm sorry, and for those of you who aren't coming back, please make sure you don't fall off the planet, and into the real world. The real world is cool, just not the falling off the planet part.

I think it's time for bed. 2 hours are all that seperate me from 3 months of freedom.

I've been packing for a decent amount of the day today. One trip so far of Nick's stuff to storage, and only a few days left in Iowa. Tomorrow, we're off to Lake McBride, for a lazy afternoon, in the hot early summer sun, and then back to the grind of packing.

While all you seniors are freaking out about the real world, and how it's here in a week, I'm happy that I get another year, because that means that I get one more summer. One last hurrah, before I have to worry about the "real world." There are so many trips in the works for this summer. Before camp, Niagara Falls. After camp, Madison WI, and then CO, and all that comes with it. I haven't been this excited about the summer in a long time. I don't like the hot seasons or the humidity, but this summer has purpose. New life to it. I'm not working retail for the first time since my senior year in high school. I'll have 2 months away from everyone I know, doing something that I'm either going to love or hate, and I feel great about the fact that I'm finally doing something new.

To all you seniors, I cannot tell you how much you will be missed. I know that we haven't always gotten along, but your class in particular has been the most impactful on me when it comes to friends, or sisters, or (almost) roommates. I know that everyone of you will be successful in your own right, whether it's now, or in a few years. To each of you, I give you my best wishes, and hopes for the future. While it's going to be hard at first, being in a new world, finding new friends, I know you will all be successful. Just don't forget us old ones too.

I'll be out of here as soon as my final is done on Wednesday. I know I had originally said that I would stick around for graduation, but my godmother is going to be in town next weekend, for the first time in a year. As much as I want to be here, I really want to be home for her, instead of trying to work time for her into what would be a very busy schedule that weekend. Between her, my mom and I, our house will be filled with laughter that it hasn't heard since before the divorce. Right now, life is all about happiness. About sharing joy in what we all have, seeing the little things to appreciate, and knowing that drama just isn't worth it in these last few days before a new season.

Between now and then, I have a few things to return to people, a lot of things to store, a car to pack, some wine to drink, some laughs and tears to share. I think it'll be a great couple of days.

So, I've lived in the midwest my entire life. Every year, around this time, it gets super hot for a few days, and the humidity comes along with that.

This year, the humidity has kicked my ass. Yesterday, I had an exam, in an enclosed room with no windows, and no real ventilation. I got out of the exam, went straight to my jury, and then took care of the few things I had to do yesterday, at which point, I took a nap for the entire afternoon.

Last night, I got so overheated that water wasn't doing anything, so I took an ice cold shower. 30 minutes later, I was too hot again. Somehow I managed to fall asleep, using the wall for some cold, as I usually do.

I woke up at 4 am too hot, at which point I went to the bathroom, then came back to the room, and laid on the floor till it got cold enough that I could sleep again.

This weekend is going to be hell on my sleeping patterns.

Mom called me about 2/3s of the way home tonight, and Teazer made it back to the house. He's a little skittish, and in isolation, since he might have fleas, and needs to be checked for battle wounds, but at least he's back.

Dear Nicole,

Don't lose your mom's cat on mother's day. It's a good way to get her freaked out, as well as make it so that you end up coming home 4 hours later than you meant to.

Love,
Self

I lost my mom's cat.

On Mother's Day.

And we still haven't found him.

I've figured out why I love home so much, and it's because at school, I don't feel like I really have a place that I can call my own, where I can just chill out and relax. Aside from the wedding that I went to yesterday, that's been pretty much all Nick and I have done...relax, watch movies, play sims, and upload music to my iPod.

Yes, my iPod. It's a shuffle, so it's not nearly as cool as all the crazy things that you kids own, but it was free, and I haven't had an MP3 player in years, since my old one is no longer supported by Rio. Right now, I'm in the middle of joining the world of podcasts, and I'm pretty darn happy with it.

I'm not coming home till laterish today. It's mother's day, and mom and I are just taking the time to do fun stuff, like bake cinnamon bread, and make a meatloaf.

In general, I'm happy, for the first time since block break.

Yesterday had the possibility of being an incredibly crappy day. Monday's, historically, are almost always my worst day of the week. Yesterday's Monday however, was determined to prove me wrong. Not only am I done with choir for the rest of the year, but the old laptop that I knew that I was getting came.

And, it wasn't an old laptop at all. It was a new shiny dell. :):):):):):):)

Yesterday's Monday was...shall we say amazing?

Time to study for my exam that I blew off all day yesterday.

Me and TP...she thought my shirt rocked :)

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